Taking a Break...
Saturday, July 24, 2010 | 
Posted by
Meliezza Walker
This past year has been a very challenging one for me - both professionally and personally. I feel like I’ve been caught up in a whirlwind as tragedy and sorrow has filled my life lately. While I was in Maui for summer vacation, my son asked me why I always shoot sunsets and not sunrises – and that pretty much sums up where I have been for a while…anticipating the end of a stress filled day.
As many of you know, my mother has been battling cancer for the past three years with a diagnosis of multipe myeloma over fifteen years ago. She has lost both of her legs due to complications of chemotherapy and her cancer is progressing rapidly. My parents are still in the Philippines where they remain until my sister and her husband pick them up in late August. It breaks my heart to think of her as she is unable to sit in her wheelchair and lays in her bed suffering day after day. She continues to amaze me with her strength and love for life. She has lots of faith and is always cheerful when we call her on the phone. While I was foolishly looking for the perfect sunset, my mother has enjoyed every sunrise that God has given to her.
I feel like I’ve lost so much of myself this past year as I struggled to find balance between work and family. I will continue to shoot personally but not professionally. I need to focus on the beauty of life through my own eyes and not necessarily through the lens of a camera. I am going to put down my camera until I find myself anticipating the start of a new day.
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